| Trying to try. |
[20 Apr 2006|11:39am] |
I can't draw.
Well, I can, but I can't seem to draw anything that I find acceptable, useful, or in any manner good. Frustrating is an understatement. So, I figure, I'm going to bring my sketchbook with my everywhere, even if I don't have time to use it, just in case. And I'm going to bring references too for some drawing ideas that I have.
But I'm really frustrated. :T
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| Otis. |
[11 Apr 2006|11:13am] |
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I don't know how long it's been since I've posted.
But anyway, I'm going to be dropping from AI. Just... it's such a bad school that takes anybody and doesn't nurture anyone's skills as much as they should. Yesterday, I drove up to LA to visit another art school called Otis and the difference in the schools was so amazing that I can't believe that I ever decided to go to AI in the first place.
And I had some awesome kobe beef afterwards.
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| Rendering. |
[23 Jan 2006|07:19pm] |
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As I sit down in front of the computer, my animation for homework rendering, I can't help but look around the computer lab in the first throes of boredom. I see three girls sitting across the room from me, chatting away, doing nothing on their computer. Just talking.
They really look unproductive, but they've got these pieces of paper taped to the monitors in front of them blaring, "RENDERING, Please Do Not Use, Thank You." I look back at my screen and see the small little bar that tells me my progress and I see that I'm not nearly done. The girls cackled loudly many times and I winced.
I might not be doing much, but at least I'm look like I am, without bothering anyone.
;o
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| Life and love. |
[17 Jan 2006|11:07pm] |
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I had this crazy metaphor for relationships just now.
It's like two running partners (or whatever sport you want to use). The best partner you can have is someone you're nearly matched with. You have your strengths and weaknesses while they have theirs. Some days, you beat them in the race (or game or match), and others, they beat you. And as you beat each other, you're skills are rising and you just become these great atheletes together, but you don't know it because that person is still right by you, beating you, and you beating them.
On the other hand, you might find a running partner that pushes you so much, that you become phenomenal and awesome, but the person who inspired that might not have the same drive. So as your skills increase, their's aren't. As much as they want to keep up with you, but there's no constant competition and equality of abilities to keep that relationship they have going and make it effective. Say you stay and try to keep it going and yeah, the other person manages to step up to the plate. At the same time though, if you stay, you might just be winning and winning and winning while the other person starts to become weaker and weaker as the losses pile up.
One person keeps going and finds someone else while the other stays behind for the right partner to push them and to push as well.
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[17 Jan 2006|03:49pm] |
I watched two movies last night. One was Gia, the other Elektra.
Gia was stupidly awesome. Love that movie. Cried, obviously. If anyone who likes movies about the lives of some people, I'd highly recommend this one.
Now, I was never really interested in watching Elektra in the first place. It was actually a lot better than I thought it'd be, but it was still far from perfect. Some things seemed completely... out of place, but I liked it overall. Of course, my favorite thing about the movie would have had to been that the sai work was done by my old karate teacher. Rawr.
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| Gia |
[17 Jan 2006|12:46am] |
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"Life and death.
Energy and peace.
If I stopped today, it was still worth it.
Even the terrible mistakes that I have made, and would have unmade if I could.
The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul.
It was worth it for having been allowed to walk where I've walked,
which was to hell on earth,
heaven on earth,
back again,
into,
under,
far in between
through it, in it
and above..."
-Gia
Fuckin' phenomenal.
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| I call it a curse. |
[10 Jan 2006|01:30pm] |
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Another two classes today (and aren't I posting a lot?). I've got Van Dall for 3D camera techniques and though I don't like the teacher that much, I think I might enjoy the class at least a little bit. The night class that I've got is Audio for Animation and so far, I hear that it's a good class, so today isn't that bad.
I finally got around to watching Advent Children. What took me so long, anyway? Awesome movie, for sure. I'm glad they had Red XIII actually talk, even if it was only one line at the end. I watched it with Nick and it's awesome. It's helped motivate me (though I've been motivated though, in my opinion) to start up my FFVII RP.
If anyone is interested, I'm setting up the forums for it right now at the NinjaSoup Forums down in the roleplaying section. It's titled Final Fantasy VII: Rise of Shin-Ra, but it's not officially open yet. I'll post or announce whenever that happens.
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| Classes have started. |
[09 Jan 2006|12:51pm] |
Monday, January 9th. It's shit already.
Classes are going to start up in a couple of minutes and I can't help but think that this quarter is going to just kick me in the ass, week after week. I don't think it'll be as bad as last quarter, but all of my classes this quarter are all scrunched up into three days. It's like high school hours all over again, except longer and without needing to go to school on Thursday and Friday. Trust me, it's just as bad in some ways.
We're starting in a new 3D modeling program called Maya. I don't know jack shit about it, so I'm a little worried... I need to get the program from someone sometime too. Bleh.
Watched The Island the other night. My cousin had kept telling me, "It's... alright." in that it's-not-really-that-good-but-I-watched-all-of-it-anyway voice. I thought it kicked ass. Granted, I like the actress Scarlet Johansson, but I thought the movie was pretty effin' cool. :D I need to buy it sometime.
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| Dreaming. |
[08 Jan 2006|03:10pm] |
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So yeah, I've started recording my dreams in a very personal word pad file that's lying around somewhere on my desktop. Anyone could see it, really, but they'd have to go through my maze of folders to find it. Rawr. So I often remember my dreams... anyone have some they don't mind sharing? Mine are deep and dark (but not really, I'm just too lazy to post any of them at the moment). They just make me wonder if they're part of my subconscious or trying to tell me something about myself.
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| Life right here for you. |
[07 Jan 2006|09:23pm] |
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Well. This is going to be my "catching up on my life post."
I don't exactly know where to start. Maybe with my work? Alright. It's still kind of crappy. I've been working there for about eight months, yet I can already tell that the job is horrible. Our head manager makes $8.50 and hour... she should be making $10.00. :T I'm making $7.50... I think I should ask for a raise, but this is just the surface of it all, really. The reason anybody who works that and stays there is because of the people. I love my co-workers. They bring the dimension of vibrance, fun, and interest that isn't included with the job itself. Most of the workers at Coldstone are in high school... which is nice, but all of us college students are getting stuck with nasty day hours. I've made some really great friends there, it's just unfortunate that a lot of them are leaving. It's a chain reaction at this point. Everyone who stays there for the people are starting to quit because their friends are quitting. I almost feel bad for wanting to turn in my two weeks notice anytime soon because I know I'd be screwing my boss over. There aren't a lot of people working there at the moment that are manager material and I think she'd get really frazzled and take it out on the workers. In an evil passive aggressive way, of course. Just another reason we hate her. So yeah. Work.
School has been going well. I made good grades, but I'm still a little afraid of where I'm going to be once I get out of my major. I keep seeing people who are so much more skilled than I am that I worry about where my place will be in the working field. Obviously, nobody is going to get the most amazing job right out of college, but sometimes I just can't help but worry...
I think the highlight of my life right now would be karate. I only go once a week, but it's such a relaxation and release that day... I love it so much. Sure, I get beat up and I wake up the next days with bruises all over my person, but I feel so much more confident and alive with life right now. It's an amazing feeling. I'm learning really quickly and I kind of feel like I'm the same as I was six years ago... just with a little bit more. I love trading blows with Tyra... not sparring, but... in, well, nobody would really know what the hell the terms mean, but it's like a set of moves choreographed for two people. A lot of people don't punch and mean to hit, but we do and it gets my adrenaline pumping knowing that if I don't block the punch, I'm going to get hit. I never want to stop training in karate. I feel like it's that area in athleticism that I was meant for.
I'm going to leave it at that. S'good thought to leave on.
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| It's great to be free. |
[16 Dec 2005|08:53am] |
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Today is my last day of finals. I'm sitting in my background design and layout class and... it's just a great feeling knowing that this is going to be my last class for this quarter. And then three full weeks of not worrying about homework. Granted, I know a lot of other people get a lot more time off for their break, but damn, I'm really looking foward to mine.
How's everyone else doing?
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| House of Game. |
[23 Nov 2005|03:43pm] |
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New forums. It's where I'm residing right now. :F Check it.
House of Game
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| Multiple updates in a day! |
[22 Nov 2005|05:35pm] |
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Alright, I made the matching (hopefully) signature for the previous Fleur Delacour avatar. Made it while I'm waiting for my friend finish her homework. I know I'm posting the avatar twice, but I wanted to see it next to the signature. A little off, but I love 'em.
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| Omg. |
[22 Nov 2005|02:56pm] |
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Alright, if you haven't seen it, go see it. Harry Potter movie of course. I still need to put my pictures onto my comp from my camera. Then I'll put them up and it's going to be awesome. And... yeah. I actually think I'm going to start wearing that blouse and vest casually... it was rather comfortable. I'm rambling, I know, but I'm on my break during class and I've got nothing else to do.
Ciao.
Maybe I'll have some more icons or signatures up later.
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| GoF avatar... >.> |
[21 Nov 2005|09:03pm] |
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Yeah, couldn't help it.
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| Late update. |
[21 Nov 2005|03:43pm] |
Now, really, I just hadn't gotten around to updating after I saw the Goblet of Fire again. Holy crap, just as good as the first. And if anyone is wondering, I'm in my 3D Animation class right now, bored out of my mind because my teacher... well, I'm sure everyone understands how frustrating some teachers can make a class. So here I am, raving on Harry Potter.
Go see it damnit!
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| Goblet of Kickassnessness. |
[18 Nov 2005|09:19am] |
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Hell yeah.
I'm at school, brain dead, totally fried, with a bruise on my arm, but it was all worth it to stay up and watch the midnight showing of the Goblet of Fire movie. Dressed up as a Hufflepuff... that was awesome. I'm seeing the movie again at 7PM today and I'm definitely not going to forget my camera this time around. Dammit. I'll post picture when I get the chance.
Anyway! Movie was awesome! They hit all the important parts, in my personal opinion. They downplayed some characters I particularly liked. Fleur. Holy fuck, give her some credit, will you? But I won't get too miffed since I liked the movie overall.
Best crowd quote?
"OoooOooo...*giggle, giggle*" Collective.
"HE'S ONLY SIXTEEN!" Response.
You'll know the scene when you see it.
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| So long? |
[08 Nov 2005|11:58am] |
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I did it again.
I don't want to talk about how my long phases of note posting are icky and boring. :T Really, erm... my excuse this time is that I've been horribly busy with school and work! :F Erm. Yeah. Really, I have.
But onto more exciting news.
Who else is @#$%ing excited about the Harry Potter: Goblet of Fire movie? Because I know I'm effin' jazzed up for it. I'm seeing a midnight showing and another showing at 7PM on the same day. Nice, huh? And, hopefully, if I get all of my materials in on time, I'll be able to go dressed up as a Hufflepuff student. Rawr. ;D So right. Who else is that excited? Nevertheless, if any of you who actually still live in same area of me are interested in going, just leave me a comment or e-mail me if you know my e-mail. Or AIM. OrangeKDJ and/or ShinRaOrange are my screennames. I'm trying to get a group of people to go. ;D Also! Since it's mainly a group of people that I know, if you do want to come, try to bring another friend or two with you because I don't exactly want anyone to feel like an odd one out. Poeple can feel like... an odd three out or something. But the more the merrier.
INFO:
www.movietickets.com
AMC Mission Valley 20 Theaters
Nov. 17th, 2005
12:01am showing
Tickets are $11.00 for adults, per adult
I'm going to get in line hella early, because I'm like that. So... leave your comments for any other questions or anything else. Or to just drop a line and talk. That's good too. ;D
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| Constantine |
[29 Aug 2005|02:05am] |
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So... I watch Constantine. I loved it and... I'm trying stupidly hard to find a picture of Chas as an angel. >.< SLDFIJSD. *want* Go see it if you haven't! :F Yargh!
And I've been motivated to become semi-active. And maybe I'll even get around to checking posts from friends! :O!
Omgar. Need to call Angela.
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